After so long since I posted something on this journal.. Finally an update!! For those who happened to read this, well.. just and thanks for your time paying minimal attention to my rants.
Ok, since last time... Nothing really happened to be of interest... got summer classes, celebrated my 19th birthday (thanks Fame and Jen), finishing summer classes and whatnot. It's just nothing but waking up early only to go to the university to study Cost Accounting, Humanities and Personality Development. Gosh, I thought summer's supposed to be fun. Anyway, it went smoothly and thankfully got past those horrendous subjects.
As the new academic year starts, I'm dreading for the worst case that might happen to a college student: Having to be in a class with the professors that scares you. Don't get me wrong guys, my professors are great, they have enough experience in their respective fields or industry and have the right to stand in front of the class to teach a thing or two about their subjects. What I'm scared at is that I don't think that I can handle the pressure and just self-destruct for God-knows-what-reason. The semester's just beginning and I think I'm already depressed in what state I'm in. The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that I need to work hard to maintain my scholarship. I don't want to be more of a burden than what I'm now tot those who provided for me.
So far, everything's going so-so... I'm doing well in half of my subjects and struggling pretty hard on the other half.. But, I'm happy because I have Nihongo as my Foreign Language subject.
Enough about academics, let's talk about the other side of my life. I never believe in fate or destiny or anything that.. but something happened that made me to reconsider the thought. Last July, my friends and I went to an Anime Convention because it's a assignment (well, not exactly go to an anime event), and I dragged some of my friends half-willingly; I and another classmate of mine happened to love anime so they have no choice but to tag along with us. There, I'm so happy because I saw some of the cosplayer dressed as the anime characters that I love. Well, nothing happened there to be of importance other than I took pictures with the cosplayers, bought some anime merchandise, and everything. But one thing that changed my life there and turned it on 180 degrees (ok, I don't know if that was exaggeration) was the fact that I met the man of my dreams!!! Well, it's kind of complicated but since I'm already ranting, might as well tell the whole story.
It started when my friends and I were wandering at the Anime Convention, then I noticed this guy, who happened to be a photographer at that event and he cosplayed as Near from Death Note. What attracted me to him was that he sort of have this 'mysterious' feel about him. And when I observed his actions, I'm getting attracted to him more and more. Since he was there in cosplay, I want to ask for a picture. But, I don't have the courage to ask him! (I'm shy people! Especially if it's about something I like). Then I told my friend that I want to have a picture taken with him but left the part that I like him. Well, my friend said that we can go and ask for a picture but I refused, saying that I'm shy or embarrassed about it. Every time that 'Mr. Photographer' (my friends and I named him that since I don't know his name) passed us or crosses path with us, I get flustered and shy for no apparent reason. Then my other friend, Fame, suddenly came and I told her of my predicament. She was brave enough to approach 'Mr. Photographer' and ask for a picture. To make it look like just an ordinary photo op, I dragged my friend with me but I'm beside 'Mr. Photographer'... hehehe.. The fun part is when my friend asked for a second shot, I suddenly pushed my friend away (that wasn't intentional... okay, it was.. But I didn't mean to hurt her.... Promise! and she wasn't hurt. I apologized to her after that) When we left the Anime convention, I'm kind of sad because that meant that I wouldn't see 'Mr. Photographer' again.
After that, the days passed and I told the story to my friends. I told them that I liked the guy but they were all laughing at me thinking that it's just a snowball's chance in hell considering that I don't know his name and that there's no possibility that I will never meet him again.. Boy, they're wrong....
It's like two weeks after that, As I'm boarding the train, A guy suddenly passed in front of me. I have this feeling that he's familiar but shrugged it off thinking that it was impossible. When I went inside the train I'm about to go but because there were no seats left, I have to stand 'til I get to school, I decided to just go out and wait for another one but one of my friends was already inside and called me. I thought it would be a good idea to just stand for at least 20 minutes because I have someone with me. Nothing of importance happened during the ride, girly chat and everything. As we alight from the train, I saw again this 'guy', Now I'm positive that this guy is 'Mr. Photographer' minus the Near cosplay. I couldn't tell this to my friend because she might think that I'm delusional. So I just inwardly giggle and kept my peace.
When my friends and I were waiting for our next subject, the topic 'Mr. Photographer' was opened again. I;m being teased by Fame saying that my illusion will be an illusion. But, I blurted out that I saw him earlier at the train station. My friend who was with me earlier seconded and supported my claim. Now this is unbelievable. I can't believe that my friend also saw him!! That means it's true!! After my friends heard the story they couldn't believe but was happy with the development of my non-existent love life. It's destiny, I'm telling you!
Now, the picture that I have with 'Mr. Photographer' was my profile pic in Facebook, hoping that he will notice it. This might be a little weird to some but I think he's the one for me.. Okay, I won't be jumping the moment I saw him and say "Marry Me!"... XP 'Coz that would be really weird. I want to know him a little more, and just take things in a slow pace. But seriously, I don't know what will I do if I saw him again at the train station, or if that chance will come again... Just stare at him? Look at his ID to know his name so that I can add him to Facebook or to whatever social networking site... --sigh---
Sorry guys if it'sway too long, I just need to get this out of my system.. Comments please?
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